New Year Part 2 (From the Past)

-Please note that I started writing this blog before the New Years, and before I had my blog page prepared. Since then I have redesigned this "project", and will be starting it in earnest on January 10th, 2011-

It’s the start of a New Year now, and it doesn’t feel particularly special so far. I mean, I don’t feel any difference from last year at all. That makes sense though. After all, time is just our own invention designed to measure the passing of things. The changing of the days makes no difference to the revolutions of the Earth.

Thinking about that makes me doubt this project – to write something every day in order to improve my writing. Will it really make me a better writer? True practice makes perfect, but at the same time there’s a certain level of knowledge one has to have in the field they’re trying to improve upon before they can start to say “yes, I think I can write a little each day and have this be interesting for everyone”. What this may wind up being is an exercise in frustration.

Not to mention that my college project is going to take up a lot of my time anyway – the 50 page thesis I have to write, send in, get reviewed, get back, edit, send back in and hopefully complete by mid-May. And the wedding I have to attend in May for my girlfriend’s sister, and the wedding in June, and getting my driver’s license. Already I’m feeling overwhelmed, and I’m wondering if I should be putting all of these things on myself, or if I’m over-worrying myself to psyche myself out of doing it.

Well, this is the first “post” of the New Year…though I think the last one might’ve been written for today. I’ll have to start dating these so that I don’t lose track of whether or not I’ve posted for a day yet.

I think the problem is that I lack direction. I’m getting a Masters Degree, but to what end I cannot say. I’m going to this wedding, but where is my relationship going? I’m getting my driver’s license, but to go where?

Writing something every day might help me realize how to direct myself. I’ll have to make sure I do it every single day, and schedule my time carefully so that I don’t miss any of the updates. I guess what I’m hoping for is not something spectacular to come out of this, but for my own self to be improved simply by trying to do something.

I wonder if that kind of goal is as productive as I’d like it to be?

Bah, I’m far too tired for my own good right now. I blame allergies mostly, but also the fact that it is still January 1st. I was already awake much earlier than I thought I was going to be on December 31st, so the New Years celebration has thrown me off even more.

I think that’s about a full page. I really need to fix my Word Processor to show indentation properly. I messed it up somehow, and now I can’t get it back to the way it was.